Browsing my Facebook page, I stumbled upon a friend’s profile who happened to be my first boyfriend. I played the wedding video he posted. It was his wedding video, actually. Although I knew he’s going to get married this month, I was still swayed by some mixed emotions when I saw it. It was like white flashes came through my eyes. Yes, I flashed back to where we started until the day it ended. Very much like Timehop.
Truth be told, I got a bit teary-eyed. I suddenly pictured myself walking gracefully and beautifully down the aisle towards him. I saw his inner soul when I looked into his eyes. His lips were not moving. His hands, shaking. There was something in his posture that tells me I am all that he needs.
Somehow, I felt relieved. Relieved that I came to realize how blessed I am to have been hurt by him in the past. To have known him and eventually forgot all about him after. To have felt the happiness knowing that there is joy in new beginnings. And most importantly, to have been able to meet the love of my life I am marrying in 4 months.
I was young back then when I started to question myself how two people manage to survive after a painful break-up. Little did I know that I would experience it myself. Well, I didn’t not only survive it, I triumphantly nailed it!
True enough, when God closes a window, He opens a door. He uses people and circumstances to lead us and not break us. He always have our best interest at heart. He is just awesome!
In Jeremiah 29:11, it says..
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”